There's updates to be told.. Behold the long long loonggg first post of 2010.
so... The best thing that I never thought would happen to me.. 12/05/2009..
the love of my life, my high school sweet heart, the guy that stole my heart, my true love, and more then likely my soul mate..
I don't know how this happened.. but this is how i think it did :
"Good things come to those who wait"
-Anon
This is a good quote to live by. I started to believe it was a load of bullshit around my second year being straight up single. my 4th year single, I came across the guy I thought I had finally earned.
But now I realized after he had dumped me 6 days later, that he was the last test to earn my other half.
But now this raises the question: Why all of these tests? why earn your perfect half?
I still don't know, remember this is a memoir of a sort of a emo kid.
mmm... but, anyways
at first I didn't like this guy, but he liked me...
Story time children :)
It's the night before the first day of school, I'm thinking about how the summer had transformed this person, to what is called "scene". Anyways, I was just sitting at my desk, drawing out what I was to look the next day to get a glimpse. As I sat there looking at the drawing, I had to question myself: Who am I?, who is this I'm drawing? ,
The next day I dress myself to the drawing, feeling nice, but I'd have to say, very empty.
I was awe'd at, gawked at, pointed at, and drooled over. It was neato compared to how it used to be.
At lunch, my friend ran to me, to tell me about this guy.. that looked exactly like me. Okay so the night before I had also thought "pfft no ones going to look like me at alllllll" I mean who the HELL sprays their hair STRAIGHT up? apperently he and I did. So I went on an epic adventure all aruond my school, easly waking about 4 miles easy just looking for this guy.
No luck
The next day, my hair down, not sprayed up but still up in a different way. I walked into my English class, went to a corner to put my longboard away, I turn around and almost walk into a very tall male. I look up, to find this guy, that looked like me..
hmm.. from that day on I worked up some guts to say hi and ask him his name. at first i liked him, till I got to know him better about his past.. and I chose a shallow option.. I wish I didn't.
But if I didn't wait to get to know him, and go out with someone else and get devastated, I probably wouldn't be so in love, and so happy.
In that time I had been hurting him by going out with someone else. He had given me advice, but also had found some of my own. I think I should put them together
"Live life, have fun, and wait, just wait, it maybe hard, but just do it."
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"just do it"
-Me (Lol)
"Leave your heart open, and love will let it's self in"
- Jewelry commercial
I know, the last ones weird. but I dont now what happened, I was walking out of my moms room one day with a jewelry commercial playing, and I heard this quote.. and I don't know, it just got stuck in my head.
Hmmm.. so yeah thats all in the last couple of months, so break down time:
- I had 2 boyfriends this year (one turned out to be a hardcore pussy D<>
- learned some valuable lessons
Hmm.. I don't know what else to type.. other then I can't believe, how being happy effects everything.
All I can say is, Wait and
Don't give up
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